whims

the beginning

I can't say that this is going to be the most interesting blog for awhile. It will be what it will, as all things, I'm finding out.

Since Christmas, I've been struggling to figure out who I am, what I want to do, and how the hell to make that happen. It seems I have not managed to figure any of those things out. Shit. :) I may have lost my summer job in Walla Walla, which means I'm not going back like I was planning. Truthfully, I'm okay with that. My family is here and I don't think it's such a bad thing to spend as much time as possible with them while I still can. I can find a job. The market here isn't so bad as it is in Wally World. But, that was the one thing I thought I'd figured out....the summer will be what it will be, not what I want it or try to make it be.

The UWC and my relationship to it has been and will be for awhile something that haunts me, but in a good way. I went out for ice cream with Shaunna Meyer yesterday. She was the woman who taught "World Ex", which is the best class I've taken by far, and she's a graduate of a UWC. She makes me feel normal and helps me not to questions the pain I feel and the way I have been "protecting" myself from the world and people emotionally since graduating. You know, when I went to Montreal and stayed with my 18th year (he graudated from Italy a long time ago) we started talking about the school and he just started crying. Good for him. Good for me to see.

posted by Marielly @ 9:27 AM